His eye gleamed as he looked at Geralt but there was no humor there. "Losing my mind."
Bull looked back at the fire and he sighed. "Since I got here it's been... a struggle. After the Chargers died, I rededicated myself to my job. I did it faithfully, my letters to my superiors were my lifeline back to the Qun. But... here, it is easier to question everything. Again. I don't like feeling the earth move so violently beneath me."
It was shaking him down to his foundations. He had been trying to make peace with it since he told Dorian and Krem about embracing a more... Vashoth existence. But his nightmares had him unsteady again. Had him questioning his choices in a way he never had under the Qun.
"When someone leaves the Qun, we call them Tal Vashoth." He was pretty sure he'd mentioned to Geralt, at some point, that his job had been to hunt down Tal Vashoth on Seheron. "I've been told my entire life that leaving the Qun means madness, means giving in to the savagery that's in our blood."
He looked at Geralt again, holding his gaze steadily.
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Date: 2017-09-25 01:47 am (UTC)Bull looked back at the fire and he sighed. "Since I got here it's been... a struggle. After the Chargers died, I rededicated myself to my job. I did it faithfully, my letters to my superiors were my lifeline back to the Qun. But... here, it is easier to question everything. Again. I don't like feeling the earth move so violently beneath me."
It was shaking him down to his foundations. He had been trying to make peace with it since he told Dorian and Krem about embracing a more... Vashoth existence. But his nightmares had him unsteady again. Had him questioning his choices in a way he never had under the Qun.
"When someone leaves the Qun, we call them Tal Vashoth." He was pretty sure he'd mentioned to Geralt, at some point, that his job had been to hunt down Tal Vashoth on Seheron. "I've been told my entire life that leaving the Qun means madness, means giving in to the savagery that's in our blood."
He looked at Geralt again, holding his gaze steadily.
"I almost killed Dorian."