"If stepping off the path means madness?" Bull shook his head slightly, but he knew some part of him wasn't being honest. It's worth it. But not if he killed Dorian in the process. "I almost killed him, Geralt. I had my hand around his throat, pinned down and crushing him. He had to use magic to heal himself before he could talk."

Bull growled under his breath. He wanted to headbutt something.

"I wasn't even awake."

He wanted to say that it was worth it. He wanted to say that having the Chargers and Dorian meant more than anything, but look at where he was now. Nearly murdering his lover, his kadan in his sleep. Dorian hadn't even been awake to defend himself.

"I can't do that again, Geralt. I can't risk it. Whatever's happening now, it's fucking up more than dreams."